My family is being torn apart and there is nothing I can do to stop it. My sister-n-law is unhappy with her life and believes that the only way to fix it is to take my nephews and move away.
Unfortunately, this attempt to make herself happy is at the expense of everyone else in my family. I won’t go into details – what would be the point. However, the whole thing sincerely feels like a death in the family.
I know this sort of thing is as common as rain but that doesn’t make it any less heartbreaking. I’ve hardly slept since I got the news and all I want to do is comfort myself with food – but I don’t.
I know God hasn’t abandon us, so I have to believe that some good will come from this, however right now it’s hard to see what that could be.
Romans 8:28 We know that in everything God works for the good of those who love him. They are the people he called, because that was his plan.
In times like this, I cling to that verse.
I thought blogging about it might help but I feel like I’m wallowing in my misery instead. So let me focus on the positive for a moment. I’ve lost 25 pounds in the past 5 weeks.
I was down 22lbs when I left for vacation and though I did my best not to binge, by last Thursday, I had gained 7lbs back. To be fair, I suspected that it was mostly fluid. Either way, I got right back on my diet and have already lost the 7lbs plus 3lbs more over the past 4 days.
My desire to binge was helped by two takeout dishes. The first is my old favorite, Taco Al Carbon. By substituting my usual steak with chicken, three tacos are only 480 calories. Maybe its the hot peppers but for what ever reason, I always find three of these tacos to be very filling.
The second takeout dish is Moo Goo Gai Pan. This delicious Chinese dish comes in at a modest 160 calories a serving. That and a heaping helping of shrimp fried rice are only 606 calories total and very filling.